finito!

Finally, I have a master degree.
I am thrilled - but shouldn´t there be rockets and firecrackers and stuff going off in my head? There just isn´t. Life just kept moving forward. Just like before.

The sweat, tears, pain and agony from the stress that I have gone through these last six months has taken its toll on me and made me realise a thing or two about myself. I will take these insight of wisdom with me, as I realised (a good couple of months before I handed the paper in) that there is more to life than writing a master thesis. Good thing I realised that early on and did not get "the scare" where many get to the point of never handing the thesis in in fear of getting the final grade. I, personally, don't think of the grade as the work I have done. Rather, I have been reading and writing and analysing and thinking about one - 1 - thing for a year or two and THAT is what is the real experience of going through with this process, NOT getting the grade necessarily. Understanding your limits, your ways of working, how you withstand pressure, working on complex issues for long periods of time and getting a good long look at your field of specialty. Because thats what it is. My field of specialty. Then my insights and understanding of the field becomes primary to my resume. Unfortunately, this does not automatically show in a piece of paper. I left the task of writing to those who want to be authors, I am a thinker. I think about things and put them together in different contexts. Perhaps having a great writing ability helps though. And writing an excellent thesis will help to show that there is proof in writing that your insights are there.

Frustrating, but life moves on. A good grade is great, but a bad one could imply so much more than the first alternative many people like to cling to; the reflection of an average or lazy student.. No, perhaps a it is just a reflection of a person who see other values in life.

Oh well, I still haven't got a grade yet, but it does not bother me either. I am realistic, I'll have a life afterwards too. Just like now. Everything moves on, even if it stands to be an A or not.